February 19, 2012

 

It's been a good day from my perspective. Ty's friend Chris spent the night last night. Tyler was yelling at me in the car about getting his car back & it was getting pretty heated. Then Chris showed up and things calmed way down.

They hung out playing video games that night. Ty passed out at 10. I took Chris home this afternoon, and things went really well afterwards. Me, Brian and Asher played outside in the snow. We took him sledding down the little hill in the front. Ty came out after a while and wrestled around with Oliver, threw really hard snowballs at me. He tackled me, but got away before I could take him down. He went sledding with Asher. We didn't fight at all. He even brought up getting his car back without getting mad and causing a fight. He played with Ash a lot. He even ate dinner with the family!

I asked him if he saw anyone today, and he said Tomas, but I couldn't get any details.

He just left to spend the night at his friend Trey's house. Trey's girlfriend Hailee picked him up.

It's days like these past three days that make me think maybe there isn't anything wrong with Tyler. I think maybe he is just throwing a big fit when he doesn't get his way. Kind of like a temper trantrum, but for a 6'4", 175 pound man. I see him act normal for 3 days, and I feel so happy inside. I feel like I have my son back. This is the son I know, the boy I raised. Why can't it be like this all the time? I know he is happier - he's been in such a good mood these 3 days....isn't it his choice to act this way? Can't he see how everyone in the house is embracing him and responding in such a positive way to his behavior?

I learned once that no one can live a lie for more than 1 year. Please, God....let this all be an act. Let this be an adult temper tantrum. Let this sense of normalcy be here to stay.

The worst part of this is I know this is Tyler going through a manic like state of happy. There will be an end. There will be a crash, and it will be bad. There's nothing wrong with hoping for the best.